“It’s you that you’re running from,”

 

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Photo by Pablo Garcia Saldaña on Unsplash

 

Note to self: Don’t beat yourself up. Don’t compare yourself to someone else. Don’t hate yourself. No one else will take care of yourself other than you. It’s not a race. You are your own. You may not change the world and that’s okay. You may not be special to the whole world but you are precious to a bunch of them. You’re not a loser. You’re not lost. You never were.

There comes a time when you’ll want to scream and cry. It’s okay. Do it, get through it, take a walk and come back stronger.

Spread love, make love. Good manners don’t cost anything. Neither does generosity. Once again, it’s not a race. Enjoy life as it is.

23/8/2017 s.j.r

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Things You Can Control #2

Your attitude.

Maintaining a positive attitude is hard work. Obviously, not everyone can manage to be a ball of sunshine 100% of the time.

But it’s better to try than never at all, right?

Who likes a sour face? Who likes a hot-headed man? Who likes a rude person? Who likes a moper?

Chances are, you don’t really feel comfortable dealing with people like this. It takes a great amount of energy to interact with these people. They’re like soul suckers. They suck the positive out of you and turn you into one of them.

I agree. There’s a lot of shit going on in the world. But there’s also a lot of amazing things going on as well. A lot of chances to be taken.

I’m not saying you should ignore the bad things and live in an ignorant bliss. I’m saying you should acknowledge the positive things and work on how you can spread the love so the bad things could subside in some ways.

Negativity doesn’t pay. Being rude doesn’t pay. Shitting on life (and then don’t do anything to make it better) doesn’t pay.

We live in an ever-changing, ever-improving world. Being a pessimist is a mediocre thing to do. Being rude is a basic thing to do.

Do yourself and the entire universe a favour and control your attitude. Change it if necessary.


Inspired by Ruben Chavez of ThinkGrowProsper.

 

 

Amongst The Clouds

After running 6 laps, I sat on the spectators seat to enjoy the view. The rainbow decided to show up for a brief moment before the dark clouds swoop over, covering the setting sun’s rays.

If I could train or work out in a place like this every day, I’d be the happiest most Zen person in the world.

My heart belongs to this town and another place I’ve never been to.

Lines and Sketches #14

I drew Lili Reinhart a while ago.

If you’re watching Riverdale then you already know she plays Betty Cooper, the girl next door. I love this woman so much it’s not even funny. Haha! Everything she does makes me really happy.

I drew this not expecting any kind of recognition. Let alone from the person I was drawing.

But on 9th April 2017, while I was rocking my niece to sleep, I received a notification on my phone from someone congratulating me. I wasn’t thinking much about it when I realised Lili Reinhart had liked my post.

This was my first time ‘reaching’ to someone using my ‘art’. And it was exhilarating. I tagged her as a joke and my caption was more or less sincere. I mean, if I knew she was going to see it I’d write a more decent caption 😂

It’s pure luck that she had seen that but I’m delighted, anyway. For the next 3 days, I couldn’t stop smiling. I even checked back any time I could to be sure it was real.

Well, it absolutely is.

I guess things like these are the ones I need most right now. I’ve been struggling at validation and self-doubt for so long. This was the boost I needed.

So, to many more portraits and late nights and hard work and red burning eyes and recognition and uncertainty and rejection and failure.

2017 is going to be a good year.

P.S: Amira, if you’re reading this, thank you for all the kind words you’ve said when I needed them the most. Thank you for being a fan of my art. You’re the best best friend anyone could ask for. You are a blessing in my life. 😘💕

Strangers.

Sometimes, God sends you something to ponder about through strangers.

Once, a stranger talked to me while we were attending a talk. She told me her little sister couldn’t get a job after graduating from uni. It just so happens I was taking the same major as her little sister (well, briefly took it). Keep in mind, I didn’t tell her anything about me. I just mentioned that I was attending university.

And sometimes, God gives you bits of advice through strangers.

One told me to always remember to fall in love with our loved ones every day. “I make sure to fall in love with my husband every day,” she said. I have never felt so happy and alone at the same time when she said it.

One told me to never waste time. “Your youth is too precious to be wasted,” she said.

One told me to remember our parents, in sickness and in health. “When you take care of them, you will find blessings abundant,” he said.

I wish I wrote more often back then. There were so many words said to me that would benefit my future self. Now, I can’t remember them properly. Such a waste, isn’t it? (Write more, peeps.)

It’s weird to talk to strangers, I know. I still feel that way. But when I do strike up a conversation with one, I never leave empty handed. I leave with a piece of their life that gives me something to think about.

Everyone has a story. They are waiting to be heard. Why don’t we all lend our ears to these people?

Prudent // 04.04.17

Do Good Deeds.

Do good things and good things will happen to you.

People underestimate the power of doing good deeds.

Donating, giving a helping hand, saying something nice and even as simple as smiling. In the short run, speaking from experience, it feels like trying to carry water in a sieve. It seems like the things you do don’t get appreciation. (Although when you do things, don’t do them solely for approval or a thank. But that’s for another post.) In the long run, you’ll see how being generally nice affects your everyday life.

You’ll feel much more relaxed. You’ll notice more things to be grateful about. You’ll find yourself more content. And when these things start happening, when you start realising the changes, you might find it weird at first.

There are fewer things that make you angry. You tend to avoid things that specifically makes you upset which in turn, saves you from a lot of cursing and late night headaches. Unfortunately, some people might find you annoying with your overly relaxed state. (Because according to society, there’s always something wrong with you. And that, kids, is why you shouldn’t give a flying fuck about what others think of you).

They might find it weird. But I do what I do. Some say it gullible. I say it’s just being rational.

I don’t have time to waste hurting other people. Just as there’s not enough time in my life to do good things for my loved ones to justify their existence in my world. So I do the next best thing, just try to make the now count.

The World As We Know It.

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I just finished watching the Before The Flood documentary.

I feel like giving the Earth a hug and telling it sorry repeatedly.

I don’t think we all realise how much we’re hurting the Earth and the ecosystem. As much as I would like to see myself as a non-polluter, I still use palm oil for cooking, I still drive cars that contribute to carbon dioxide emissions, I still eat beef (although not too often because I don’t really like the taste of beef) that contribute to the methane emissions to the atmosphere.

The human race is going through a revolutionary phase. Technology is getting better and we’re making all this massive progress to create a better lifestyle for the future generation. All of this is great and I am a fan of all the latest gizmos. But we’ve neglected the state of our little planet we call home.

I still don’t understand why some people don’t believe in climate change. The data is there and we’re experiencing it right now. Extreme storms, droughts, rising sea levels, increasing temperature. We’re going through all of this and most of us aren’t really doing anything to make it better. In fact, we’re ignoring all these signs and just living with this guilt and saying to ourselves “we’re going to die anyway.”.

Somehow, the majority of us think the government will take care of it, magically. In reality, we are the ones responsible for making a change. That’s a common misconception with all people. They think whatever action they take are insignificant, so they end up not doing it at all.

Whatever you do in your life, as insignificant as you think it may be, if you do it every day, it’ll accumulate and lead to something bigger which in return will make you a better person or create the change you want to see in society.

I’m getting side tracked here.

If it’s about religion (which I don’t really understand why religion is a factor to not believe in climate change), it’s not really us trying to stop it from happening (trying to act God, if that’s what they’re implying), it is still going to happen. But, it’s more of an effort to slow down the rapidly increasing temperature. Whatever happens after the effort, we’ll have to accept it.

This is a catastrophic problem.

One that will probably eradicate life on earth. Possibly all humans. If it is what God Wills, then may God have mercy on our souls. This is what we deserve for all the years of greed and neglecting. But are we going to just sit around and not make an effort to take care of all God’s creation?

Not to mention nature is also suffering. The animals, the plants, the ocean life. Soon, all of the human kind will be suffering from lack of food resources and storms and droughts. There are some countries that have already suffered from the effects of global warming. Floods and storms are chasing them away from their homes.

Change is hard. But this particular problem has an expiry date.

We can’t deny it any longer. It’s already happening. The future generation is counting on us to take action. They don’t understand it yet, but we do.

We hold the responsibilities for an awesome-r future.

Embrace that responsibility and make something great.

We all have to.

P.S. This might be the year I’m getting environmentally more conscious. Which is great but also weird. But also necessary.